Seeds

Sitting here I have been reflecting on so many things this evening. My heart is heavy for certain people in my life who are experiencing pain. Some of it is self inflicted nonetheless it still hurts to see those we love suffer. I remember so many times in my walk when I felt low and unworthy of God's love. There are still many days I feel that same way. Though I cannot say for certain what the outcome might be, I can say that God's way is the only way and if you're fighting an uphill battle that seems almost unbearable, maybe it's because you're choosing the wrong path. Sometimes I think God allows things to happen, not to punish us but to teach us that we need to rely fully on him.

There have been recent moments that I have felt really saddened by some of my own choices and I know that I have disappointed God but I know that I am forgiven and pray that I can somehow learn from those choices and grow in them. You can't continually search for a place to plant yourself. Sometimes you have to just grow where God planted you. If you feel yourself wavering just ask God to sow seeds into your garden. Water it and watch, it will grow.