There are many area's in my life that need cleansed. Kind of like cleaning out my closet and getting rid of the junk inside it. Things that I've been holding onto that are making me feel rotten. All the clutter makes you feel out of control, like there isn't enough space in your life for the positive things that God has for you. I'm not sure what this next chapter in life will be for me but I am certain that it will be a challenge for me, just letting go.
We can kid ourselves and say we'll never make another mistake,we'll never stumble in our walk but that's unrealistic. We all fall short of the Glory of God and need reminded from time to time that we're human. I'm just very thankful that I have salvation and are forgiven because heaven knows if I weren't I'd be in a very dreadful state.
All that being said, I am hoping that 2013 will bring new opportunities both for myself and for John. I am starting a new journey with the boys. We have decided to home school so that it is a big responsibility for me. I prayed about this for a long time and with the recent events and current state of our world I think it's the best option for us. John's job is crazy, working 2 weeks on at a time and then being off 1. We don't get to see much of him and most likely won't until this contract ends. We have about 18 more months of it to go then from that point, not sure what he'll decide. I'm praying another opportunity comes up because as much as this job pays well, I really hate him being away from us so much. It's hard on me, our marriage, the boys. We are stronger when we're together than when we're apart. I almost feel like a single parent and it's not a good feeling. :(
I'm going to make more time for the boys and for getting things done that I need to do through out the day and staying off of facebook. It's such a waste of time, there really is no excuse for the amount of time that I sit here and blow just staring at this computer. I'm ready to start this day. Cherio'
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