Raise Them Up

I am so thankful this week for my family, my friends and our health. I know so many who are grieving the loss of loved ones and it breaks my heart for them. Sometimes the only thing you can do is pray when there are not enough flowers or words to comfort those who have been left behind. I still recall the numbness of losing my mom, the surreal feeling that it was this crazy dream and that I would somehow wake up and things would be normal again, sadly that never happened.

I do not fear death itself but I do tremble at the thought of leaving behind 2 of the most precious gifts I've ever been given. I pray a hedge of protection around them ever single night, that God sends his angels to guard and watch over them. As a mother I have never feared anything more in my life then the loss of one of my children, the mere thought leaves me breathless. The only thing that keeps me from driving myself utterly insane is releasing those fears, praying about them and recognizing who holds tomorrow. I know in my heart this world is fleeting. God has taken the sting of death and someday we all will face our destiny. It is for that reason my attitude has shifted recently to creating an environment for my family that is more eternally focused. I am trying to be a better example for my children, showing them the love of God. We all fall short, we all experience failure but this one thing, we will never give up on. We want our children, God's children to have salvation. I would give my final breath to know my children have eternal life. There is nothing more that I want for them in this life than to know their Savior and accept Him as their own. I will never forget Christmas of 2012 when Ian spoke the prayer of salvation. He was only 5 years old. Nothing in the world is more important to me. We live in a dying world, it's so important to recognize that and to teach our kids about God. I'm so thankful for the men and woman and teens who every week volunteer to teach or help with Awana's and children's church, they are such a blessing to us. The job doesn't end there, it never should. We are entrusted the care of these beautiful children and we need to raise them up to know the Lord. There is nothing more important! Nothing. Without salvation we are all like lost sheep wondering through the wilderness with no shepherd.