surrender

Isn't it odd that when we feel strangely separated from the outside world, we become more connected to self and God? This past month hasn't been an easy one in light of the many changes. Though change is good it can also be energy consuming and emotionally draining. I have had to deal with several things, most of which are highly demanding and very upsetting recently. It's been tough to stay on top of things and to not allow myself to fall back into old habits. I usually use great caution when dealing with an over abundance of stress but this time, like it or not, it was coming and there was little I could do to avoid it even if I tried. 

I have found that in situations where I cannot do anything, God can and will do everything. Even though a lot of things are falling apart, a lot is falling together and I completely believe that it's because of the Lord. We prayed before considering this move. I even fought back and forth about the negatives and positives of it. At one point I even decided to completely forget about it and walk away until God gave us a clear sign that this was most likely where he wanted us to be. Though I cannot describe the feeling of knowing you're at peace with a completely senseless act, God is in control and is leading the way when we fully trust and obey his will. It's not always easy, it sometimes hurts a little but I know in my heart if I fully surrender to his care, he will never forsake me. :)