moving along...

This past year has been kind of a fog. I'm not quite sure where time went, it passed by so quickly. It's now almost June and it doesn't really seem possible that 6 months of this year are gone already. The boys are getting so big. Ian is 6 and Aevan is 5 but it still feels like they are babies to me. I really never thought time would fly by so quickly, it kind of makes me sad. I wanted to get pregnant again this year. John and I have both decided that if it is going to happen, now is the time. I just turned 40 and never thought that I'd be thinking about having a baby at this age but if I get myself in a position where I'm healthy enough to do so, I will. For the 1st time in a long time I will have health insurance again once John get's through his 90 days of probation at the post office. Having Hailey here with us has made me miss the joys of seeing 1st smiles, 1st steps, 1st kisses... all of those 1st moments are so precious. She really is a joy and Ian and Aevan love when she comes. Of coarse we feel blessed to have the boys but we have always wanted a larger family. Ian and Aevan have both said they want us to have a baby which makes the thought of it even more special. I know they would be wonderful big brothers. Whether or not it happens is in God's hands but I'm hopeful and just the thought of it brings a smile :)