Silly randomness

I have been experiencing writers block now for the past 2 evenings. This is so unlike me and for anyone who knows me well at all, it's almost frightening. Words generally come so easily to me, like butter rolling off a spoon. Okay well that analogy is probably a little overzealous but not far from the truth. I have been journaling practically my whole life. It got me in to some trouble when I was a young girl, especially when my diaries became public or were invaded by silly boys or a mama hen who thought her daughter was acting out and that there had to be good reason. It calms my nerves, helps me to vent and in the most simplest of terms is therapeutic. Life gets so crazy, I rarely have time to breath during the day, by the time I get the boys to bed I'm so exhausted all I want to do is relax. I often will pick up a good book and read through 1/2 of it in one night. If I feel the creative juices flowing I will pick up a pen, well more often than not the laptop these days and begin to write.

At the beginning of this new year of 2012 I made several promises to myself. Not goals because I often believe if you call them that, you're automatically setting yourself up for failure. One of the many promises I made was to spend more time doing things that I enjoy. I plan to stick with that one, hence why I'm sitting here writing this evening. I will be appreciative of my family, friends and even more importantly of God and the blessings he has graced me with. I love my life, even the wacky and silly moments that pop up in the spirit of raising 2 crazy little boys. I cannot imagine being anyone else but who God made me to be. That also bringing me to the next promise to love myself, be myself and embrace the woman that I am yet to become. I know that God is still working on me and just knowing that makes me feel pretty darn special. The pressure is off, I will only write when I feel the desire, not the need to please.... I will write about silly and sometimes bizarre topics like John whistling in his sleep and saying out loud *lay down here* by the way~ that was seriously random but honestly just happened. Life is full of many complexities but do we really need to pick them apart? Enjoy each moment. Laugh till your belly hurts or bum toots... I don't mind. As long as you're not sitting beside me when it does, it's all good.